I hate being in love. I hate feeling so happy when I meet you. Smiling shyly, awkwardly, with my heart beating so fast, cold hands, and cold sweat on my back. I hate being next to you, looking for a million sentences to make you laugh and smile.
I hate reading your messages in my inbox. I hate the way I need so much time to reply, erasing it over and over again, thinking about it word by word. I hate falling in love, all the details I say, write, and send to you becomes so important. I hate being in this position but I just can’t help it, can’t I?
I hate thinking about you before I sleep and feeling something move inside my heart, spreading all over my body, making me feel so anxious. I hate spending an entire night just thinking about you.
I hate imagining how your face looks like right now, how you smile, what you’re doing… I hate being so worried when I know you caught a cold…
I hate liking you. Because I’d have to look for small mistakes in you. Mistakes that I look for desperately because I’d hate to know that you could be perfect, you could be flawless, and that I might have fallen for you…
I hate being in love, especially to you. Because in this overwhelming feeling, behind the urge to be with you, my heart struggles and explodes slowly.
muhamaze lagiii..
22 Mei 2009 at 5:57 pm
aduh..aduh… kenapa ini? ada apa ini? piye tho nduk? kenang apa janjane?
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muhamaze lagiii.. dan lagiiiiii.....
26 Mei 2009 at 3:33 am
katakan sejujurnya padaku…. hate me or love me…
dah bisa nebak pasti jawabnya “or”
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muhamaze genjoottt terusss tiga kali...
26 Mei 2009 at 3:38 am
moga2 ndak edan lagi dirimu dan..
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Tengkuputeh
29 Mei 2009 at 11:10 am
Itulah mengapa surga itu indah, karena ia tak memiliki amarah yang menjadikan cinta menjadi benci…
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yani
3 Juli 2009 at 6:49 am
dan,…ak ra percoyo kui tulisanmu dewe lha kok grammar e bener ngunu padahal kan ak reti score mu piro huahuahauhauhuaha
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Eby
5 Agustus 2009 at 7:05 am
nice post. Thanks for share
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xiaoling
13 Agustus 2009 at 2:50 am
what a nice expression!
this is exactly how i really feel right now!
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cerita lucu
21 Juli 2010 at 4:55 pm
take it or leave it… dont want both of them
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